I went to the park around 2.30. Forgetting it’s summer holiday time. Children everywhere. GAH. I like running when there’s hardly anyone around, or when I don’t feel self-conscious, which is normally night time.
But it’s still light until gone 8pm, and I’m trying to overcome it. So I ran. For some reason my lungs were crap today. Not sure if it’s to do with the trees, time of day, what I’d eaten or general change of season sniffles.
2 miles was tough. I did 1.66 in the park, walked home and did the extra little bit. Just in time before a downpour - it really perked up my final minute pace!
Time: 20mins 41secs
I’m aiming to be tired enough to go to bed early and get up early and go for a morning run or at least start work early enough to fit in a lunchtime run.
Kind of hoping that if I get into some sort of schedule with running I’ll be able to keep at it more consistently!
I’ve been working out quite consistently for a while now.
I’ve been lifting heavy 2-3 times a week, doing 20min cardio after those sessions, walking around more, swimming on occasion (1hr each time) and generally trying to be better with my diet.
I have seen zero results.
And it’s stuff like this that makes it hard for me to not fall back to eating disordered habits. Cos let’s face it - at least I saw external results, however unhealthy those were.
When I started up running again earlier this year I didn’t always enjoy it, I had to shove myself out the door, but I felt better in myself.
I think it doesn’t help that I’ve got 2 months of work on at the moment, so I’m a bit more sedentary than usual.
Tonight I’m going to go for a run. My holiday is now only 3 weeks off, and I doubt I can make any great changes to myself, but as long as I’m feeling a bit better about my fitness levels I’m hoping I’ll be able to enjoy myself more than I would in my current state.
Stomach feeling a bit flatter. Need to really step it up a gear to make sure I feel confident and healthy in a month’s time AKA HOLIDAY!
In other news, this latest work project is pretty boring, technical aaaand is going to take me like 2 months to get through. Guh.
Walk time for me though. I think I’ll head towards Parliament and see the London Eye today :D
It’s down as high intensity full body training on the bodybuilding.com plan.
It included: butt lifts, kettlebell push press, dumbbell deadlift, bent over barbell row, wide grip lat pulldown, stiff leg barbell good morning and dumbbell rear lunge.
I really enjoy lat pulldowns. No idea why!
Today I took on yet more work so am glad I made the time to go to the gym, even if it means I’ll be working until later than usual this evening.
Today’s lunch: a whopping plate of veggie stir fry with some garlic and dark soy sauce.
I haven’t run properly in ONE MONTH.
I’ve done short, 10min jogs with my boyfriend, but not a proper run. So I thought I was going to see a massive drop off in my stamina.
Was pleasantly surprised with how easy it felt! I managed 2.31 miles before I got bored of my usual neighbourhood routes, but felt like I could have managed a bit more.
Time: 24mins 17secs
I’ve decided to try to run at least two miles twice a week, just to keep my running stamina ticking over.
Worked from 8 - 8, woke up and started work at 8am again. Intensely translating and proofreading for that long makes my eyes go funny.
Must drag bum to gym.
Wednesday: 30mins Pilates, some wall-sits, some ab stuff
Thursday: Leg day: freehand jump squats, plie dumbbell squats, clean, barbell split side squat, leg extensions, lying leg curls, dumbbell calf raise and 20mins on elliptical.
God was I sweaty after yesterday’s workout. And I was meant to do either cardio or some full body weights today but I am in pain. As in, I can just about go to the loo pain.
So I’m giving myself a bit of a break. I might manage to go on a little run with the bf over the weekend, or use his heavy bag a bit.
This week will be 5/7 in terms of workouts. Not bad for week 1. Hoping my body gets used to this regime by next week so I’ll be able to do all of it without being crippled!
I started my new, more lifting-centered plan yesterday.
Monday: 30mins cycling (pretty easy); 10mins run - roped the bf into exercising with me.
Tuesday: Upper body: Push ups, side lateral raise, dumbbell bench press, tricep kickbacks, seated cable rows, alternate hammer curls, hyperextensions, air bike and finished off with 20mins elliptical.
I came home, had a little protein shake with water and some milk (yummy btw), some fruit and feeling pretty hopeful that if I stick with this I’ll start feeling amazing about myself within a few weeks.
If not, at least I’ll be stronger!
As of Monday I am officially starting a plan that revolves around lifting.
It’ll still only be lifting 3 days a week to start with, a bit of cardio which will either be elliptical in the gym or running outside a couple of days a week.
Hopefully this will make me feel better about my body, stronger and less prone to overdoing it and coming dangerously close to old eating disordered habits!
It’s hot in London. Fucking hot. And not in a nice, yay it’s summer kind of way.
In a weirdly hazy, overcast, muggy, humid, let’s get on a bus and boil to death in each others heat kind of way. God help the people who have to get on the tube. I feel for them. Thank fuck there’s a bit of wind at the moment.
I’m a cooler weather person. And most people find that weird. I like the sun, I like being warm, but I don’t like it all the time and I don’t like when there’s no escape. I’m so grateful I don’t work in an office or have to commute.
I like knitting and tea. My Scandinavian blood means I get warm after walking about a mile, even if it’s really cold out (came in handy living in Russia!). Grr.
Haven’t done any running, did 1 session of weights and I don’t even care. No exercise for me!
I know I need both, and I enjoy both. It’s just every time I start thinking about following a running plan to increase distance the eating disordered part of my brain seems to kick in.
It starts making me think about how much weight I can lose a week, how tough I’ll have to be on myself to follow every single workout.
I don’t want things to be like that. And to top it off, I’m not sure my weird knee would be up to it, and I sure as hell don’t want to hurt myself.
So I’m contemplating whether to just shell out for gym membership. It’s not too expensive. They have proper weights (not like the crappy, no heavier than 4kg ones my current ‘gym’ has), machines, classes and best of all - the POOL.
I DO want to lose weight. But I want to be healthy and strong. I don’t want to force myself to run x miles a week to feel good about myself.
I could still run once or twice a week and actually enjoy it.
I know that lots of people get good results and feel great about themselves from lifting as opposed to doing loads of cardio. Now I just have to convince my brain.